moving on

I don’t know who reads this but I’ll be so happy if I can help at least one people with this. ❤ At the beginning of the year I was so in love. I met my first love. He was so amazing. I loved him more than anything and anyone. We had some problems. . I was on my way to the airport when I saw him. He looked at me and kissed me. We were a couple. But that moment my heart broke. My heart broke into million and million pieces. Then we came back together a few times. Now, I blocked him everywhere and I’m happy. I don’t have a boyfriend yet,but to be honest I don’t really want because this year was crap. But I grown so much as a person and I learned so much about myself. When I begged him to stay even tough he cheated on me I lost myself. I lost myself. But a few months later I’ve got a new me. I’m so thankful for my heartbreak because my perspective on life and love has changed so so much. There was times when I was sitting on the roof at 3 am and I was crying like a baby because of him. I cried everyday. I felt like I wasn’t enough. I was so in pain and so lost. But guys. It’s honestly get’s so so much better as the time passes. Cry out everything. Make yourself a priority. I thought that I had to have a boyfriend because I’m so alone and it’s so awkward. But guys… It’s not awkward. You’re not alone. You’re just free. You have to love yourself first. You have to learn about yourself. Spend time with yourself. Your man or woman is waiting for you somewhere. You’ll meet so so much people. There is so much out there. Don’t waste your time crying over someone who didn’t deserved you at all. Guys,everything is going to be ok. You’ll find your significant other. I promise you. ❤❤❤

Let me share you how I moved on. Ex girlfriend broke up with me for there was no more love for me in his heart. That experience was too painful for me. Took me a year or two to moved on. The first few weeks and months, I just cried and have a drink with my friends. I cut ties with his friends that I too became close with and same goes with him. It was hard to see our old pictures together where we smile and shared a lot of memories. I can’t eat properly or sleep. I often cry my heart out till I fell asleep. As days turned into months, I finally have the courage to delete and dispose everything that reminds me of him. I finally have the courage not to think of him anymore and moved on with my life. I focused myself on my studies, finding a job and eventually meeting my current gf. Having your heart broken by the person you used to loved was excruciatingly painful. Thankfully there are people who were always there during those tough times. Perhaps if we see each other again, I’ll be able to say “hi” but with no lingering feelings at all. I am thankful for him as well for letting me go. If in case we ended up married, maybe we’ll divorce sooner